you

you know what i love?

you.

i love the way you smile,

the way you tell me “everything’s going to be okay”.

it never feels like it’s going to be okay,

but with you, my mind’s a blur.

i tell you to do all these things,

you obey.

a calm state of mind i’m in,

when i’m with you.

you’re my heaven,

but i can’t even get to you.

a constant habit of lying,

to you and to myself.

“are you okay?”

“yeah.”

i type that out with teary eyes,

but you don’t know.

released